That saying has stuck with me through out my life and pulled me through some very rough situations. Recently I was involved in a relationship and had hoped it would be more then a passing fling. Unfortunately he really wasn't ready for a real commitment and even if he had been I doubt we would have had longevity due to some of our personality issues.
I began to allow myself to really feel as if I was not going to ever find an earnest man who would be a good match for me. I have often felt that in life. Almost as if I was trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. Aside from that this world is filled with people more concerned with social precepts and images then they are with the grounded important factors. Finding a man who is a good fit for me as a partner who is also the type of person I would want to commit myself to is not an easy combination to find.
I often feel that too many people are jaded, they are shallow and uncaring, selfish and unwilling to look beyond their own wants and needs. As much as I love human kind we are filled with flaws and growth possibilities that often go unrealized and I include myself in that statement.
Meeting some one who has walked through the proverbial fire, some one who has learned from it and who has not shut them self off from their feelings and emotions is almost impossible to find. Well to be quite honest I just didn't think that type of person even existed any more.
When I reflect upon the fires I have seen in my own travels I recount that I have been lied to, treated callously, defamed, threatened and treated in countless other inhuman ways. We all have to some extent. Being who I am seems to attract that type of behavior because like the brave fool I continue to put my heart on my sleeve and give people a chance regardless of whether my better judgment tells me I should not. I try to remain to unguarded and open myself up to the people God places in my life. At times this has led me down some very hard roads that are much less traveled by most I assume. At times, times like now when I get to witness and be part of some of God's most amazing handy work it restores my faith and mends the damage that has been done prior.
A very long time ago I learned from life that the out side of a person is never ever an indicator as to what lies beneath the surface. In my own life I have been tried, judged and convicted and never in a court of law. These sentences passed on to me sometimes unknowingly by my peers, my family and by most of society.
As many may try to tear me down for living my life and making my own decisions, there are, on occasion people who don't act and react as most would. These people are truly rare in nature and content. Almost like finding a four leaf clover among the grass this rare breed of person must be coveted above all others.
In our daily comings and going we meet so many people. Often not even beginning to skim the surface of getting acquainted with most of them. More focused on our tasks at hand then truly being thankful for the real beauty God shows us each and every day. How often I wonder that the unique gift of each person we are given is squandered and lost either through lack of forethought or because of fear. How many opportunities we miss because of carelessness.
I chuckle a bit to myself because the popular phrase of stopping to smell the roses now takes on a whole new meaning. I will write again soon if for no other reason then I have found a rose among the thorns.
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